To dare to live alone is the rarest courage; since there are many who had rather meet their bitterest enemy in the field, than their own hearts in their closet.

- Charles Caleb Colton

I am lonely.. thats all there is to say.. Two of my closest friends have left me.. here.. alone.. I feel like i have built an invisible wall around me.. -i feel isolated-I have people around me.. I talk to some.. .. Yet I am not satisfied..I feel like I am on an Island.. By myself.. I feel the need for human contact-whether it be good or bad--.. i want to be talked to .. i want to have fun..I want to be held.. But no one HERE can fufill those needs for me.. istead i have to bide my time.. with painting.. reading... and WRITING- letters to joshua... I miss him so much.. 3 and a half weeks without him will be hell.. 1 week without rachel.. is very hard to deal with too!!.. Rawrrr SOMEBODY PLEASSE COME BACK !!! im going crazy!!!!!