Im gonna cry.. I wanna be a "kid" again.. I WANT to do my childhood over again...just to see what differences i could make in my life.. i could be a totally different person.. just because .. maybe i didnt brush my teeth when i was little.. or wipe my ass.. **cringes** haha you know what i mean though.. i could have taken an interest in sports.. or i could have devoted my time to a worthy cause.. i could have built my studying skills.. i could have been more responsibility.. I dont like my life, I dont like who i am.. ..I , I DONT want to be Dorie Young..

I wish i was stupid.. so i didnt know what i was capable of.. i always tend to dissappoint myself.. and others---im shy.. And i dont speak my mind .. when i really really should.. MILLIONS AND BILLIONS.. of ideas flow through my mind but i dont take the time to write them down or.. BROADCAST THEM TO THE WORLD.. pssh haha.....they might not be great ideas...but they keep me amused..



I HATE LOOKING AT OLD PICTURES DAMMIT!!!!

i hate myself as well...