The past few weeks have been such a bore.. and thats an understatment.. Most people's winter vacations are just one big buffoonery.. MINE?? has just been a squandering mess..yea...no risk-gay buisness.. just undesired one on one family time.. I havent been very socialable .. hense.. my best friends where out of town for a substantial amount of time..

I spent a very uncanny New Years eve with some friends i havent talked to in YEARS..and.. Once new years day approached i realized why i had dispatched from hanging out with these friends in the first place..

But..

Im happy with my "new found" lifestyle.. It may seem selfish.. but here it is.. --I only care about people who care about me.. Hense.. I tried caring about everyone.. and all it left me with was this..deep sinking.. bottomless.. empty feeling.. I tried to ..expand my friendships amungst other self-center high schoolers.. and I wound up shit faced in a pile of CRAP talking teenagers... Anywhoo...I currently like my friend status.. I hadnt realized it .. untill a few days ago.. but each of my friends.. are unique.. each have substantialy unique qualities that I myself admire.. Not only do they each have these "unique" qualities.. but each also have hermit like tendencies as well...(nice trait a times) each one.. at some point in time have been socialbly excepted ..and socialby NEGLECTED..

my friends have super powers.. just watch.....

Rachel Lindt----Has this undying love for each and every human bein.. She has the ability to make everyone feel like they're special..funny...and wanted.. She is very unique in her humor and taste.. and shes just so darn cute, i could eat her all up!! yummmm.. we started hanging out a christmas show of last year.. because everyone was having poop talking posses.. and rachel and i just.. didnt want in on it.. PLUS no one wanted to hang out with us because we were weird..

Carly Miller- Carly Miller cares.. carlys always there.. shes listens to you blabber about random pointless stupid stuff that most people wouldnt have the patience to sit and indure.... She's always considerate of others feelings.. and shes BEAUTIFUL.. Carly and i started hanging out when.. sam.. her and i were social hermits.. and we kept to ourselfs.. yet we had A BLAST with GW guys... pshhh (sarcasim lol)

Kalena Weena--You've always been there.. your just so laid back.. when we hang out.. like.. we dont even have to say anything.. just watching movies and eating schmores.. is cool with me.. i dont experience anything new unless im with you.. which in some cases could be good... BUT most were bad.. haha and most where regreted.. BUT ~~we regreted them together .. RIGHT?Stay cool.. Kalena and i were "DUMPEES" of the group of guys we chilled with.. cody dumped her and hector dumped me .. we related... and we both were.. weird.. so it meshed well..

Katelyn Bickmore- She just gets me.. we get each other.. hahaha we have this silent "secret look" thats just says it all.. not only is katelyn cute and sweet.. shes mormon!! AND IT DOESNT GET ANY BETTER THEN THAT.. i admire her will power.. Doorzie and Rachel often tempt her with R rated movies.. but katelyn? she just keeps on truckin... Katelyn and i were brought together by.. uh.. i dont know!!!! LoL ooh a beach trip ..

Jessica Brown--- ms. social butterfly.. shes always inviteing people over.. making people feel welcomed.. she has this way with people..she just knows all the right buttons to push.. she always knows what to say.. and shes cuttttte! BROUGHT TOGETHER by.. a swim party .. that nobody attended.. lol

Tommy Behm-- So cynical, yet i love it!! He really keeps me hanging in there when im about to blow.. hense.. all the "guy friends" i hang out with ignore me and.. like drool over every word carly has to say... Brought together by being cynical social outcasts ..

Richard Bergman-So talented.. a little bossy.. BUT definately a leader.. Brought together by being lonely and phsycotic.. over summer... lol COFFEE HOUSE.. lol

Davis Forney-- hes just so cute... and his words of wisdom just linger on.. Brought together in elemtry when we went out and.. never talked..

Erik Henese-- Sweet kid.. Gotta love him and his misuse of words.. lol i'd sacrifice my right arm for this kid.. brought together THRough richard.. and me being weird

Joshua Perry-- a little negative .. and judgemental.. but who isnt!!! I love his sense of humor.. p.s just because.. i dont laugh.. it doesnt mean, i dont think your funny.. My laughs are like hard earned.. it takes something incredible.. to make me hackle crackle and pee my pants... But back to josh.. He's a sweetheart, and he truly cares.. josh is a great story teller... and when it comes to conversations? HES SO INTIMIDATEING.. because hes just soooooo smoooth.. and cool.. i often lost my train of thought because i was in aw of his .. manorisims..and knowledge..
Brought together.. during a freshmen girls b-day swim party lol

Milica Cosic- So funny..so random.. i love you.. YUGO girl.. lol sorry old tyler joke.. but honestly? You amaze me with the confidence you indure when talking to guys.. I COULD NEVER BE So funny.. YET SO SMOOTH!!!.. grrrrrrr.. I DONT KNOW HOW WE BEECAME FRIENDS.. WE JUST CLICKED

MY DOG- i seriously have this new found friendship with my dog.. we cuddle and then we like play around on the floor.. and pownce on each other.. and growl and wrestle.. Your sooo cool.. no joke i use to hate you.. but now.. you just might be the love of my life... today.. i shot of those new years eve poppers.. and she got scared.. and who did she run to? Me.. Yea me..BROUGHT TOGETHER THROUGH THE REALIZATION RACHEL SET FORTH.. "be good to your dog"


MUCH LOVE KIDS.. YOU GUYS RULE



I have a bajllion more things i could say about each and everyone of you... but i dont want to seem like a brown noser.. infact what i just said about all of you was already over the top.. Sheesh..

REMEBER..likw the temptation say "beauty's only skin deep.. ya ya ya" and each of you ..have much more then skin deep beauty...