ooch.. maybe i shouldnt help the needy..

i went to an angel tree party with pace group tonight.. i knew we gave presents to less fortunate kids.. but i didnt know it was to children with parents in prison... the lady next to me was talking about "daddy" as if he was just at home watching a baseball game or something.... me being lame and trying to make small talk... asked where she was from... and she said san bernadino originally.. but her husband was stationed in corchran (sp?) and i was thinking.. stationed.. military.. or work somewhere in corchran.. eh... i asked what he did.. man im a freakin retard.... i stopped talking and just ate cookies...

i dont want to buy christmas presents for my family anymore.. i'd rather play santa at an old folks home... man... pace caroling/x-mas greetings at the old folks home made me sad.. people were crying because it was christmas and noone was comming to visit.. i just wanna hug my grandma right about now..